To join a gym or not to join a gym....

Well, I guess it’s safe to say that I haven’t lost anymore weight. I’m so sick of being fat and out of shape, but here I sit, doing NOTHING about it. Since I spent the summer doing WHATEVER I wanted to. Eating EVERYTHING I’ve wanted to…I’m having a REALLY hard time getting back on track. It’s frustrating. I want to be motivated. I want to exercise…but I guess I don’t want it bad enough. It’s like I have no willpower. I weighed in at WW on Monday and I’m disgusted to say that I weigh more NOW, then I did when I first joined!! I went straight out and bought a ton of fruit, because as you may know, fruits are free with WW. That being said, I’m a diabetic….and I’ve been feeling tired and rundown a lot, so I think I’m going to have to try something else. I’m certain it isn’t helping that I’m getting little to NO exercise. Something has to give.

 Today I met someone online, locally who mentioned a gym she attends. After a couple of emails back and forth, she gave us a 7 day pass to try the gym out. Most of you know that I’m TERRIFIED of joined an actual REAL gym. I’ve only gone to Curves, because there are a bunch of old ladies there. But at a real gym, there are a ton of fit people and honestly, I feel embarrassed to even be in there. Look at the fat chick. But I’m going to go it and I’m going to try my best to be positive. Kevin and I are going on Monday. Wish us luck. They also have a pretty nice kids program also, so that will be nice. I really need something to get me off my butt and keep me accountable. Maybe if I have a gym membership, I will try harder. I’m not doing this to look better, although that would be nice. I’m doing this for a healthier me. Here’s to new beginnings…

As I sit here saying this...I'm holding a slice of Papa John's in my hand....  :(